Words Spoken

Words.
They're only words.
Why won't they come out?
Instead, they're stuck inside.

I've chocked back so many.
They won't let me speak.
I can't speak about my emotions.
They're permanently silenced.

I'm suffocating every day.
I can talk about you.
I can talk for you.
Yet I can't speak for myself.

You hear me speak.
Enough to know I'm well.
Well enough to live.
Living isn't just breathing.

Living is communicating.
Why can I not convey this?
Yet you continue to talk.
I continue to listen.

I stifle my pain.
I choke back my turmoil.
Not being heard.
Is slowly killing me inside.

I started this long ago.
Shoving my feelings aside.
Keeping them locked away.
Not letting anyone see me.

Will I continue to be smothered?
I don't know if you hear me.
Can you see I'm in pain?
As I sit hear and listen.

Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

As I await

A single phrase from you.
Kept me sitting on the ledge.
Waiting for you to get back.
So that I can again resume.

Breath has paused in my lungs.
Abated breath waiting inside.
Frozen in time until when.
When? Time can only tell.

Life moves unhurriedly by.
I watch as it all passes.
I can't help but wonder.
How much we'll do together.

When you finally reappear.
I can hardly wait.
No one will have anything on us.
As we storm the world.

One click of the clock.
Turns into a million.
I shift between counting.
Then drift off into space.

Will you pat me on the head?
Since I waited so patiently?
I smile at the meandering thought.
Frozen to the same exact spot.

So many others stop to stare.
Bewildered at this frozen statue.
I want to say, "I'm fine."
No words can be heard.

Am I fine here?
Doubt slowly trickles in.
Where did this thought come from?
I didn't willing abide its access.

Where did you go?
I no longer remember.
Whether you told me where.
Or if you would return.

Panic begins to set in.
Do I remember the events correctly?
Did you specifically say it?
I must have misunderstood.

Tears start to form.
Still unable to move.
I no longer know why,
But I continue to wait. 

 

 

  Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

Adventure of a Lifetime

I jump out on a limb.
Take the final leap.
A dive into the unknown.
Just to let you in.

Focus on the temporary.
That is this life.
Taking in one breathe.
To release the next.

Where are all my fears?
They've flown away.
I told them to get lost.
They fled far from me.

I take the first steps.
The adventure of a lifetime.
I'll make my way through.
A world too large.

Take my hand as we begin.
The unforeseen is ahead.
The exhilaration has pushed.
Past any doubts that I had.

Will we walk?
Will we fly?
Will we climb?
Or will we swim?

I'm packed and ready.
For whatever is brought.
Our way may be unpaved.
We'll make it a new road.

Get lost with me.
Let's find the unsought.
Dig for the forgotten.
Seek out what's true.

Join me along the way.
We'll find each other.
As we start anew.
Life is waiting for us.



 Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

Take Flight

Remind me of the path.
The one less traveled.
Lead me on a merry way.
Take me upon an endless flight.

There is this way and that.
Pay no mind to which.
Toss a coin; leave it to chance.
Our destination is still unforeseen.

Nothing to constrain us.
No worries to bother us.
No worldly care to weigh us down.
Only freedom to be discovered.

Such weightlessness is freeing.
Where this journey goes, none know.
No decisions are predicted.
We'll never be sought nor found.

Watch as my wings spread.
Prepared for flight am I.
The endless migration to come.
Where my feet may land; who knows.

Finding salvation through liberty.
One can finally take a breath.
No walls to cage this bird.
Who's colors have yet to be seen.

When will this journey end?
The question has not been posed.
Yet when it is.
It shall not be answered.



Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

My Peaceful Snow Globe

The flakes dance on their journey.

Floating to earth in cascades.
Settling neatly upon each other.
Forming intrinsic, tidy layers.

The ambience is peaceful.
Quietly birds sing their tune.
Seeking out their daily meal.
A world encompassed in white.

Branches creak quietly.
As the wind softly breezes through.
Gently hushing the birds.
Who take flight again.

A doe stops in her tracks.
Her fawn staying close for warmth.
The soft crunching of snow.
As they seek fodder.

This winter wonderland,
Brings a quiet peace.
Shrouding the landscape.
Covering it in a cold blanket.

The sun reflects off the specks.
The snow glitters and shifts.
Resembling a million diamonds.
Priceless is this scenic view.

Trap me in this snow globe.
I never want to leave.
Let me have peace forever.
Found only in such; Winter.


 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

Welcome Autumn

I see it gleam on the tips of the grass.
The dew is alight with rays shining through.
Glinting and glowing like fireflies at dawn.
Setting a picturesque scene at first light.

The brisk air settles in my lungs.
Taking a deep breath of autumn.
The smell of crispness settles all around me.
Bringing to life my senses, filling every pore.

The trees have changed their colors for me.
Shifting in hues of auburn, crimson and gold.
Their autumn garments swaying in the soft breeze.
Gently waving as if to say, "Good 'Morning".

The larks sing their morning tune.
Waking with the sun to flutter about.
Swaying through the air whistling.
Dancing to the tune of autumn.

The smell of coffee greets me.
Nestled in a blanket sipping slowly.
Taking in the scenery all around.
Soaking in the sunlight filtered through leaves.

No one is there to break the trance.
No voices to disillusion the moment.
Only stillness in the dawn of a day.
Only peace in this perfect juncture.

I have found bliss in such heaven.
There is no comparison to it.
Nothing can touch my favorite time.
The time many call "Autumn".



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

One Day at a Time

I woke up again today.

Found out I was still here.
Light filtered through the window.
Letting me feel it's warmth.

I breathed again today.
Unsure what it meant to me.
I felt the weight press.
Slide into place on my shoulders.

I made it through another night.
Not knowing why.
Why I'm here to face it all.
Facing it alone yet again.

I made it through another day.
Putting one foot out.
To be followed by the other.
Traveling this worn path.

I was invisible again today.
Not a single soul noticed.
The broken shards inside.
Lost in a drawn out trance.

I got lost again today.
Lost in my own mind.
Memories playing like re-runs.
Flooding memories down my cheeks.

I survived another day.
My head finding the pillow.
No comfort to be found.
Sleep only found through tears.

I slept again today.
Wondering when it stops.
Does it ever stop?
As the black takes over.

I woke up again today.
Found out I was still here.
Shadows dancing on the floor.
Lending way for dreariness.

Will I make it through today?
Unsure how much more.
How much can one take.
Before sanity is lost.

I made up my mind today.
To make a change.
I will find the will.
To be all they would want.

I smiled today.
As my neighbor drove by.
They barely noticed.
But I felt it alight.

I said, "Hi" today.
As a stranger passed.
They smiled back at me.
I was invisible no more.

I felt my grief lessen today.
As I made the choice.
To not live in memories.
But to make my own.

I moved on today.
Mending this broken heart.
It will take time, but;
I lived again today.
I'll do so again tomorrow.



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©