Throwing Off the Old Mask

Ones perception of you.

How you should look.

The way you should dress.

 Fitting you into a mold.

This mold that's far too small.

A mold casting for a few.

Does it make me lacking?

Not being able to fit.

The amount of beauty found.

Seen through tinted glass.

A glass now made hazy.

With judgement and contempt.

 

I won't wear makeup for you.

I'll not wear a mask.

To make you see someone else.

Whose beauty you're seeking.

 

This is my beauty. 

It's bursting at the seams.

It's there for all to see.

If only you'd know me.

 

I see beauty every day.

It's made in his image.

Made by his hands.

From dust we shall return.

 

No makeup can compare.

To make up for what he's molded.

I came from my own mold.

It's why I don't fit into yours.

 

I don't need to be more.

Than I was already made to be.

I don't need to hide.

The person you should see.

 

Imperfection is beautiful too.

Blemished are we all.

Refusing to be whited sepulcher's.   

Instead beautifying the inside.

 

Take off the mask.

Remove the paint.

That we hide ourselves with.

Find peace in the image he made you.

 

Copyright 2021 Lauren Hall ©

Lost in Thought (Mix Track)

Aleh's Tracks · Lost In Thought Poem Mix Track

Your Loss is Felt

 Picking up the phone.

Becomes a nightly routine.

Burning the midnight oil.

To keep your loved one awake.

 

The fear of knowing at some point.

The call won't be taken.

Then until the time.

That your fear has become reality.

 

Sirens and rushing for the door.

Making it all slightly too late.

How long is the question? 

No one can answer.

 

Prayers and tears comes pouring.

Family our only solace.

Grief tears the heart.

Of those who are left behind.

 

To be able to say goodbye.

One last time before you go.

To embrace our loved ones.

Before they walk to the other side.

 

We know there is no more pain.

Suffering in this life is past.

 Yet it doesn't help this broken heart.

To better handle the grief.

Grasping onto what they have left.

Trinkets and old shirts.

Becoming treasures in our life.

Wiping tears on the edge of their sleeve.

The memories are all that's left.

Family and friends to confide.

Reliving the good ol' times.

When we had those family vacations.

Our love will never fade.

Our tears becoming intermittent. 

The hole we feel from your loss.

Means our love for you was greater.

Copyright 2021 Lauren Hall ©

Imgination Grown Wild

 Open up your eyes.

Greet the coming sunlight.

Wipe the last of sleep.

From your blurry eyes.

Bolt upright.

For this is the day.

As you scramble out of bed.

Rummaging through clothes.

Dress as quickly as possible.

Grabbing some toast.

As you make your way outside.

Door slamming behind.

Running past mailboxes. 

A flash of something seen.

Before you meet your friends.

At the edge of agreed place.

Laughing as you make way.

Towards adventures awaiting.

Mountains to be climbed.

Dragons to be slayed.

Imagination has opened.

A never ending stream.

Quests to be completed.

With your fellow comrades.

What will it be today?

No one has yet chosen.

As hollering and laughter.

Leaks through the trail left behind.

If souls could be seen.

They would be a burst.

Bright light seeking heaven.

As it explodes into the world.

Where shall we go?

There is no telling.

Jumping ship to find.

The next exciting adventure.

Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

Words Spoken

Words.
They're only words.
Why won't they come out?
Instead, they're stuck inside.

I've chocked back so many.
They won't let me speak.
I can't speak about my emotions.
They're permanently silenced.

I'm suffocating every day.
I can talk about you.
I can talk for you.
Yet I can't speak for myself.

You hear me speak.
Enough to know I'm well.
Well enough to live.
Living isn't just breathing.

Living is communicating.
Why can I not convey this?
Yet you continue to talk.
I continue to listen.

I stifle my pain.
I choke back my turmoil.
Not being heard.
Is slowly killing me inside.

I started this long ago.
Shoving my feelings aside.
Keeping them locked away.
Not letting anyone see me.

Will I continue to be smothered?
I don't know if you hear me.
Can you see I'm in pain?
As I sit hear and listen.

Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

As I await

A single phrase from you.
Kept me sitting on the ledge.
Waiting for you to get back.
So that I can again resume.

Breath has paused in my lungs.
Abated breath waiting inside.
Frozen in time until when.
When? Time can only tell.

Life moves unhurriedly by.
I watch as it all passes.
I can't help but wonder.
How much we'll do together.

When you finally reappear.
I can hardly wait.
No one will have anything on us.
As we storm the world.

One click of the clock.
Turns into a million.
I shift between counting.
Then drift off into space.

Will you pat me on the head?
Since I waited so patiently?
I smile at the meandering thought.
Frozen to the same exact spot.

So many others stop to stare.
Bewildered at this frozen statue.
I want to say, "I'm fine."
No words can be heard.

Am I fine here?
Doubt slowly trickles in.
Where did this thought come from?
I didn't willing abide its access.

Where did you go?
I no longer remember.
Whether you told me where.
Or if you would return.

Panic begins to set in.
Do I remember the events correctly?
Did you specifically say it?
I must have misunderstood.

Tears start to form.
Still unable to move.
I no longer know why,
But I continue to wait. 

 

 

  Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©

Adventure of a Lifetime

I jump out on a limb.
Take the final leap.
A dive into the unknown.
Just to let you in.

Focus on the temporary.
That is this life.
Taking in one breathe.
To release the next.

Where are all my fears?
They've flown away.
I told them to get lost.
They fled far from me.

I take the first steps.
The adventure of a lifetime.
I'll make my way through.
A world too large.

Take my hand as we begin.
The unforeseen is ahead.
The exhilaration has pushed.
Past any doubts that I had.

Will we walk?
Will we fly?
Will we climb?
Or will we swim?

I'm packed and ready.
For whatever is brought.
Our way may be unpaved.
We'll make it a new road.

Get lost with me.
Let's find the unsought.
Dig for the forgotten.
Seek out what's true.

Join me along the way.
We'll find each other.
As we start anew.
Life is waiting for us.



 Copyright 2020 Lauren Hall ©