One Day at a Time

I woke up again today.

Found out I was still here.
Light filtered through the window.
Letting me feel it's warmth.

I breathed again today.
Unsure what it meant to me.
I felt the weight press.
Slide into place on my shoulders.

I made it through another night.
Not knowing why.
Why I'm here to face it all.
Facing it alone yet again.

I made it through another day.
Putting one foot out.
To be followed by the other.
Traveling this worn path.

I was invisible again today.
Not a single soul noticed.
The broken shards inside.
Lost in a drawn out trance.

I got lost again today.
Lost in my own mind.
Memories playing like re-runs.
Flooding memories down my cheeks.

I survived another day.
My head finding the pillow.
No comfort to be found.
Sleep only found through tears.

I slept again today.
Wondering when it stops.
Does it ever stop?
As the black takes over.

I woke up again today.
Found out I was still here.
Shadows dancing on the floor.
Lending way for dreariness.

Will I make it through today?
Unsure how much more.
How much can one take.
Before sanity is lost.

I made up my mind today.
To make a change.
I will find the will.
To be all they would want.

I smiled today.
As my neighbor drove by.
They barely noticed.
But I felt it alight.

I said, "Hi" today.
As a stranger passed.
They smiled back at me.
I was invisible no more.

I felt my grief lessen today.
As I made the choice.
To not live in memories.
But to make my own.

I moved on today.
Mending this broken heart.
It will take time, but;
I lived again today.
I'll do so again tomorrow.



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