One Day at a Time

I woke up again today.

Found out I was still here.
Light filtered through the window.
Letting me feel it's warmth.

I breathed again today.
Unsure what it meant to me.
I felt the weight press.
Slide into place on my shoulders.

I made it through another night.
Not knowing why.
Why I'm here to face it all.
Facing it alone yet again.

I made it through another day.
Putting one foot out.
To be followed by the other.
Traveling this worn path.

I was invisible again today.
Not a single soul noticed.
The broken shards inside.
Lost in a drawn out trance.

I got lost again today.
Lost in my own mind.
Memories playing like re-runs.
Flooding memories down my cheeks.

I survived another day.
My head finding the pillow.
No comfort to be found.
Sleep only found through tears.

I slept again today.
Wondering when it stops.
Does it ever stop?
As the black takes over.

I woke up again today.
Found out I was still here.
Shadows dancing on the floor.
Lending way for dreariness.

Will I make it through today?
Unsure how much more.
How much can one take.
Before sanity is lost.

I made up my mind today.
To make a change.
I will find the will.
To be all they would want.

I smiled today.
As my neighbor drove by.
They barely noticed.
But I felt it alight.

I said, "Hi" today.
As a stranger passed.
They smiled back at me.
I was invisible no more.

I felt my grief lessen today.
As I made the choice.
To not live in memories.
But to make my own.

I moved on today.
Mending this broken heart.
It will take time, but;
I lived again today.
I'll do so again tomorrow.



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

Tale of a Lighthouse

You alight the way in darkness.
Piercing the night with light.
Reaching across the miles.
Seeking those who are lost.

Contending with the light above.
Where they twinkle in the sky.
You find a way to shroud them.
As you wink repeatedly.

Waves crash upon your feet.
Without so much as moving you.
You are firm in your regard.
You will outlast the storms.

You've seen the dawn of many.
Sunrises as they alight the day.
You've seen the dusk of many.
Sunsets that bring about the night.

Having witnessed the calm serenity.
Of mirrored sleek waters.
As boats slice through such.
Divinity and tranquility.

You've observed tempest in her rage.
Have heard the cracks of her laughter.
As she shouts upon the deep.
Stirring up and sending it crashing.

All who see you are not lost.
Yet not all find their way.
When fighting against tempest.
Meeting their watery grave to depths.

Sorrow and joy are your companions.
They hold hands in turmoil.
Holding their peace in grief.
Lighting with every relief.

Having beheld so much.
Over the many years you've been.
What stories you would share.
If you but had a voice.



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

Time in a Capsule

Silence escapes the peaceful corridor.
Slipping through the crevices.
Sliding along the passageways.
Slithering down the halls and stairs.

Languid music alights the rooms.
Leaking from the ballroom.
Leading a dance of luminescence.
Longing to break free of tenebrosity.

Pure is the laughter resounding.
Pooling together with the sweet refrain.
Placid in it's reverb as it disperses.
Poignant in it's effect throughout.

Offering a taste of eternity.
Omnipotent in the reverence of life.
Obliging are the ones surrounding.
Outstretched are the hands awaiting.

Count down the hours till anon.
Capture the moments as they arise.
Collecting them like a treasure.
Cherish these fleeting seasons.

Amassed is the wealth of a few.
Ambition not being the source.
Altruism filling the hearts of all.
Amiable are the intentions.

Tethered to the present tide.
Tantamount is one to another.
Thriving is the palace within.
Trusting it all to be inevitable.



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

The Minds' Home

If I'm fast sleeping at this time.

Don't wake me from such slumber.

Let me be awake somewhere.

Where beauty cannot be marred.

See me lost in the unknown. 

Simply let me be there.

Let me dance freely.
A waft upon the wind.

Watch as I slip away.
Loosely guarded about.
Taken with the gust.
As it breezes swiftly by.

No words can break such.
Trance as I'm bound by.
The gentle wafts.
Of serenity surrounding me.

No touch can wake.
This body that soundly slumbers.
For the mind is lost.
In a dream of my own.

It draws me in as if.
Some tide draws up to only.
Sink back upon the sand.
Loosening the pebbles around.

The wave of peace.
Settles upon my feet.
I feel as it flows over.
Content as it spreads through.

What is this world I've found?
It's mine; mine alone.
It's a part of me, somewhere deep.
Unnoticed by those who know.

They know but a fragment.
Small portion of the mind.
A mind that wants to stay still.
Still in this other world.

Find peace of mind.
Find serenity in this dream.
I'm content to stay here.
Lost forever in my minds' home.


 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

Burning Embers

Light the match.

Let it all burn.
Watch as the embers.
Alight the darkness.

Keep me company awhile.
Let's sit here in silence.
Gazing into the dark.
As orange sparks flick by.

Stay with me but a few.
Heartbeats as we listen.
To the crackling memories smolder.
Erasing all that was.

Watch as the stars fade.
Behind a cloud of smoke.
Trailing a way above us.
Leading stairs straight to heaven.

Feel the breeze waft in.
As it gently caresses our skin.
Cold lingers on the surface.
Sending a shiver through.

Hear the night creatures roam.
Stalking around the edges.
Glowing eyes to match.
The embers as they glint.

I can feel your presence.
Keeping me safe from.
All the wiles that surround.
My body and mind.

Loneliness wants to creep in.
Be my friend for a while.
How easy it would be.
Let down the wall; holding all at bay.

The cinders have become ash.
The past is now gone.
I turn  away from what was.
Letting a tear slip down.

Hold me close as I release.
The dam holding back all that was.
I'll make it through this yet.
I will be fine; when tomorrow comes.



 Copyright 2019 Lauren Hall ©

Truth in Fear

The glaring red signal beams.
It stares at me and waits.
Knowing I'll eventually cave.
Cave into the demand it makes.

Determined to ignore the call.
Focusing my attention on anything.
Something other than the sound.
Of all that tells me to look.

See the chaos that wants to unfold.
Watch the wall come crashing down.
Feel the weight of the wave.
That wants to drown me whole.

Running seemed a good choice.
Heart pounding in my ears.
I don't dare look back on.
The presence so close behind.

I feel the hot breath on my neck.
The towering image of it's shadow.
Feel it reaching out to grab a hold.
Tears prick at the corners.

How long can I continue to run?
The question comes unannounced.
Is it worth running forever?
Questions I don't want to answer.

Is my willpower strong enough?
To outlast my endurance.
Will my stamina keep up with.
The need to avoid the inevitable.

My strength begins to wane.
My steps start to slow.
My heart pounds even faster.
I'm close to hyperventilation.

The shaking has slowly begun.
Hands; first to show their weakness.
Knees; following suit in fear.
The body has betrayed me now.

I close my eyes seeking strength.
The power to will my body to turn.
To face the presence waiting behind.
It looms over me as if mocking.

Taking a very long, deep breath.
Swallowing down the bile rising.
Willing the racking chills to stop.
My body has chosen to listen.

I start by standing up straight.
Squaring my shoulders proud.
Preparing for what's to come.
I turn to face my fears.

 Copyright 2018 Lauren Hall ©

Tale of the Heart

When the world is full of life.
Feeling all the wonders there are.
Everything was pure and without strife.
Nothing could possibly become grey.

Making it by very much unscathed.
This heart beating inside.
It's been safeguarded by many.
Many walls hold all well away.

Floating around in this bubble.
Cocooned from the terrors beyond.
Beyond the walls that are there.
Nothing can break through the barrier.

Until one day - something does.
It rang through and true.
A beating heart to match it's own.
The unmistakable sound of brilliance.

Light made all the whiter.
Life made all the richer.
Love no longer confined behind.
Behind these walls heavily guarded.

Laughter filled the air around.
Happiness began to surround.
The hidden looks filled with nervousness.
This seemed like something much more.

More than the fairy-tales read.
More than imaginings inside ones head.
Much more than all that had been said.
One could not deny the truth.

Until the truth became uncovered.
Horror filled the heart that was bright.
The pangs of disbelief grew stronger.
Wracking this body raw.

This was more than sadness.
The weight of all that had been.
Hung heavy upon the shoulders.
Now sagged from caring so much.

Loneliness creeps in like a thief.
Stalking around with it's empty hands.
Feeding on the self-doubt and fear.
Haunted eyes stare ahead blankly.

The heaviness of the events gone by.
Lie broken and cold underneath.
As this body lays frozen inside.
Inside for not a soul to see.

The walls are slowly rebuilt with time.
For time moves on by despite it all.
Taking no notice to the pain.
Of those living on borrowed time.

All previous barriers have been fortified.
Made all the stronger than before.
Surely none can scale beyond these walls.
Of a heart that's long been broken.

 Copyright 2018 Lauren Hall ©